We looked like giants

THEY'RE MAKING A DEAD LIKE ME MOVIE

OMGGGGGGG
That was like my favorite show

happy holladayz

The truth is thinking of you eats me up inside

We're taking the same roads home right now, and it's just ice

Sometimes

I look at things when all is calm and am in sheer envy.
The toothbrush holder doesn't have to worry about anything.

It just has to worry about holding tooth brushes

Note to all

Listening to the first 30 seconds of "Kids" By MGMT for your 30 second
listerine rinse makes it better.

Trust me

this doesn't surprise me

WALMART WOULD MAKE A HITLER CAKE



Such a crappy corporation.


It's sickening



I'm off to watch Seven Pounds till the sun comes up

personally, I dig this

“and when we touch we’re not really touching. if our atoms did not repel one another we’d pass through each other like galaxies, unscathed."

Conversation with ryanevidencex

grlbhndthcrtn: I think if there were like status loading bars in front
of peoples names in your phone it would make your life soo much
easier..like "oh me and jack went down 3% because I told him im glad he
FINALLY got rip of his banana strip"
grlbhndthcrtn: Like the sims
ryanevidencex: wut
ryanevidencex: oh alright
ryanevidencex: sometimes I talk to people
ryanevidencex: and feel like we have those bubbles above our heads
grlbhndthcrtn: Lolz
ryanevidencex: I've got like dinosaurs smashing airplanes
ryanevidencex: and she's got a giant x through a pink elephant
grlbhndthcrtn: im envisioning that
grlbhndthcrtn: HAHAHA

why I hate drunk boys in bands

because you deal with one for awhile, the whole tour bullshit, and on top of that some distance bullshit and it's a whole bunch of bullshit that you get tired of.

then you break up.

then you dont talk for awhile
you do off and on

but now miraculously you're recording a new record and now you're going to drunk IM shit?
no thanks i'm not coming to see you, I'm better than that


Don't expect me to be at any of your shows, I'm thoroughly pissed off right now.

i feel bad for alex to be honest. I mean I know he was drunk when he said what he said, but it was the truth more than likely.


I can think of few reasons why I'd go to Maryland again anytime in the near future.

I'm done needing to be close to someone who is even kind of someone..


but who am I kidding really?



fuck off and make your record already

Don't Wait

sometimes to do the things you love, you leave the ones you love behind.
you danced. you drank, you laughed, you cried you went to work and said
goodbye. i lived i learned stayed up all night i'll see you when the
time is right again

What's with me liking htl so much lately???

Eep

Cozzy was looking over in the dining room and I looked at the window in
the living room (because you can see what's going on in the dining room
through there) and I swear I saw like a shadow thing like dart across
the dining room as SOON as I looked over. I'm really freaked out
tonight

Btw cozzy is my cat

I LOVE TWITTER

And fake edward cullens

AHH HAAAAA

LOL

Martinjohnsonisanidiotandihatehimbai.

HAHAHAHAHAHA.
So the dangerous summer is recording a new cd,
Check it out so I can leech off fame becaue that's apparently all I do?

Luv lj so much obv!

I never find lyrics that are this true to life

We're taking pictures so we don't forget names and faces and
medications, liars turn to lovers but turn back to hatred for more
vacations...

Ily brighten

Note:

I want a bluetooth so I can walk around being a douchebag to everyone I
encounter

Sleeping lately has been a joke. I toss, I turn. I think, I think, I
think. By the time I change positions and glance at the window, the
sun's already up.

If I could lay in bed listening to cliche songs about heartache and
other irrelevant subjects I'd be perfectly content...

imissedyourskinwhenyouwereeast.

Which came first the music or the misery?

It's not the people who you dated that you get hurt by in the end.

It's the people who you never get the chance to fuck anything up with
that really get under your skin.

Sure the failed relationships suck for a certain amount of time, but
really the only people I've really been emotionally effected by long
term, have been people who I've been involved with without any emotional
repercussions AND people who I've never gotten the chance to fuck
anything up with.

It's really horrible to say but the only few hours of sleep I've gotten
in the past several days have all been nightmares. I don't know what
I'm supposed to do right now when it comes to this.

I'm going to openly go out and state I've done some less than moral
things lately and people who actually know me know what I'm talking
about. also, if you don't know, it's really none of your fucking
business either.

I've been burning candles a lot lately, ones that smell good and
entertain me with a flame, ya know...the normal kind of candle?
Everytime you blow the flame out it gets a little worse everytime you
light it again....it reminds me of something I can't quite put my finger
on.

The song "I Will Possess Your Heart" by a little band called Death Cab
For Cutie has a few opening lines I find way too fitting to even list
here. The rest of the song is pretty creepy though, creepy in a
hey-it-works-for-ben-gibbard-though way.

I've always listened to music and dabbled in making music. I do this
crazy thing where the ratio of lyrics to music is about 20:1. I feel
like throwing it all away and just starting over, but then all the
shitty lame life lessons that have happened to me will be like going to
waste...fuckmylifesometimes.

I waste my life on music,literature, lust and cinema.
I live my life, I'm happy with some of it, and I'm at least
attempting...fuck, I am changing it. I'm changing my life. There we go.
I'm out there

Now I'm going to go back to watching High Fidelity and wishing I owned a
record shop...

As of late

I keep having this strange dream where I'm running from my worries into
a white room. When I enter the white room I slam the door and keep my
worries out. I relax. I settle. Then more worries keep flooding from my
head and I drown in them

I settle .I relax

I settle. I relax. I drown

As of late

-------------------------------- 1:40 am -------------ashleyevidencex:
My thoughts won't stop racing
ashleyevidencex: Im trying to calm myself down. And when I do I envision
myself being chased by my worries then shutting a door and being in a
white room by myself
ashleyevidencex: But the thing is, thoughts and worries still keep
coming out
ashleyevidencex: No curtains
ashleyevidencex: No windows
ashleyevidencex: Just a white room

I got a bone to pick with capitalism and a few to break.

Life is good.

Fail.

great english there amiright?

I feel like

A legit adult now

W00000

LOLZ

We do it in the dark with smiles on our faces.

adventures wif awex

Lulz

Sometimes I do bad things.

Sometimes they're not even bad things.

Sometimes my friend says it's a bad thing.

Sometimes I don't care.

As of late

I always have a plethora of goals I set out to accomplish but never seem
to have even half the motivation to complete them all. That needs to
change.

I'm applying to school
I'm still torn as to what I plan to major in.
I know what I like to do but it's a hard field to get into.

I have loved music since I can remember.
Making it and enjoying it via standing in the pit or wherever I happen
to be and like right now listening to the Postal Service through these
massive professional headphones I came into possession of by means of my
ex not recording bands anymore&etc.

People's priorities change or at least they should.
Especially when one is 39 and has 2 children whom she should be looking
after more than being out all the time.

I'm appreciating every second lately.
Enjoying sights and sounds.
Taking chances in search of something real.
I'm holding my head high

My whole life is vibrant.

7 yearssss

I'm on the bus going to Philly right now.
I haven't seen Jordan since August.
I've been best friends with this girl for 7 years.
Without her around this state is boring.

<3

Worst idea of his life

So

I was laying in bed doing stuff and I hear someone opening doors in my
house
My mom was at work and my brother was at school.
So then I hear probably 2 people talking and walking around, so I call
my grandmother to see if its her, and it isn't so I call 9-1-1
And then the dude asks me shit like how many people, etc
Then a police officer comes and checks my whole house out

And apparently they left, but I swear on my fucking life there was
someone here..

Also

I just found out this really weird movie that's been on for the past
hour is called "Bangkok Dangerous"

Isn't Nicholas Cage in a movie called this?

Oh well, the film adaption of Choke finally is being released widely to
mainstream movie theaters later this month I believe. I am more than
stoked, I love Palahniuk novels and Palahniuk in general, if I could
meet anyone right now, it would honestly be him.

I mean, did anyone reading this NOT enjoy Fight Club?
Seriously?

So basically,
I'm giving this whole blogging business another go.
AKA ashleyonlygoesforartsyedgydudes.com

So its 4:45 AM right now and I am sitting in my kitchen playing with my
cat also known as Sir Cozzworth also known as Cozzy. He's basically a
rad 20lb ball of fur that meows uncontrollably at 6am outside your door
until you feed his fat kitty body treats.

Honestly, I prefer cats over dogs, shoot me.
Cats are just chill, I like dogs, just cats tend not to be as annoying
or smelly. I've had a dog and enjoy the company of other peoples' dogs,
but I am happy with just a cat.

My track record with animals is as follows:
I had a hamster named Fuffy (long story)
Fuffy was ALWAYS in his frigging wheel like non-stop.
Fuffy unfortunately had a severe reaction to a new brand of bedding
(walmart&etc apparently stopped making his kind?) which resulted in him
meeting his hamster demise via his hamster wheel. As a little kid this
was odd, but it didn't really totally bother me, I was never one of
those kids who would freak out if they saw a dead bird or anything.

I've also had hermit crabs and fish that didn't live that long (who was
I kidding? Those things basically have a pre-stamped expiration date on
their shell.)

I got my cat on the first day of 5th grade. I was bugging my mom for
one the whole summer before and when I arrived home from my first day of
fifth grade, there was this tiny kitten in my living room.

I also had a dog which was part golden retriever part german shepard
named Winston. It was basically my mom's alcoholic ex boyfriend at the
time's dog so whatevs, it was obnoxious and we had to give it to someone
we knew or something.

Then, the day my mom was diagnosed with cancer, we got a red beta fish
(that fish had a different name every week, it basically had a permanent
fish identity crisis) that lived like 2 YEARS. It was ridiculous.

So after 8 years this cat is still alive and well and 20 pounds heavier
than when we got it.

It's pretty sweet to be honest it bites bad people and keeps me company
while I watch Dexter and Weeds religiously.

Do you have any pets? Feel free to share via comments.

AKA don't be jerks and just not say anything THNX.

Yay/neh?

DING DING DING

WE'VE GOT A WINNER.

Although this is busy..

I like it

I love.

This. For the custom hinge sounds ..but..

:

To whom it may concern,

I've know you for years, and quite frankly I'm worried about you,
You're going to college, you got into the art school you wanted and have
a boyfriend who for once treats you right. Although I'm scared you'll
relapse into things that once hurt you. Hearing about yesterday made me
feel as though our talks we had every day about being happy with our
lives lately and not needing drugs were all in vain.

You know I've not done anything like that in a couple months because a
couple months ago I realized that they're not going to get me anywhere,
and drinking although it can be fun isn't the answer to problems, These
things fuck up people's lives and I'm not about to become another
casualty of them. Drugs are too much money I could waste irresponsibly
in some other way.

My arm has been hurting for days and I have no clue why, it's really
bugging me, maybe I'll have to actually go to the doctor =/

As much

as I cannot stand my mother, I cannot stand to see her being treated
like shit.

There's this character in my mom's life who seems to be doing exactly
that.
She's been with him for a year or 2 or more.
Since she's been with him she's been doing let's just say things not
even I would do.

The other day I was in her car and I smelled pot.
(Which is not what I'm talking about because we've all been down or are
still on that road)
Apparently her boyfriend smokes up in her car, meaning if she ever gets
in trouble for it. Her boyfriend will more than likely have a living
hell of a life once he gets out of jail or whatever they do to people
these days.
PLUS he's soo old and its sooo gross
He talks fast, is speedy ALL the time and so I imagine you know what I'm
talking about?

Yes, you do,
He does absolutely nothing to help her AT ALL and he's not the frigging
best role model in the world.

All in all, I basically cannot stand the man to be honest.

She counteracts everything she says and lets me down on a daily basis.
For once in my life I'm the responsible one and that sir is just a bit
fucked up.

My cousin said he wants to be the new Palahniuk, I wish him good luck.
He read me this poem he has about what his funeral would be like, and it
made me cry, honestly cry.
When writers can evoke emotion like that it's amazing.

the weather is here, wish you were beautiful

when I hit a low, it's not any kind of low other than the most severe
kind I can imagine.

It's this kind of thing where all I want to do is sleep,
But I can't sleep.

My mom cares more about her asshole druggie boyfriend than me. Which is
why I was stranded in bad Reading for an hour today. Then she 'loses'
her car keys? . Oh ok.

She suggested we all go to see the Dark Knight as a family and I was up
for it, but then last minute as they're walking out the door she tells
me I can't go. I haven't felt a part of this family for awhile. My
mom's mom and my cousins feel more like family to me than my brother and
mom.

She's never home, and even when she is she's not really here anyway,
she's basically here to tell me what a failure I am and make me feel
even more like shit. My brother's no better, all he does is sit on the
computer all the time. He never talks to me anymore really and when he
does it's just for him to be an asshole about something.

This isn't my house, I don't know these people anymore its like I was
just dropped here till something significant in my life happens.

I have friends, I have a boyfriend.
I like to spend time with them.

Lately I've been going outside a lot because it's better even though I
do get a stuffed up nose than being inside the house full of negativity
which is making me sick in less obvious ways.

Work in progress

Maybe I should just give this shit up

It's redic

Aug 6th

Yeah that's 10 jellies STACKED.

this girl sounded like a 5 year old it was ridic

OH and that's a shark attack btw.

=P n00bz

Yesterday was:
Jordan, jordan,poolz,diner, BRAWL,

Etc. Kutztown for madd long though
I reallly wanted to jump into this one table's conversation but sadly
did not.

I cohabitant with this feline his name is Cozzy
But lately I've been refering to him as Sir Cozzworth.
He has no front claws
But thinks he can sharpen them on my mom's baskets

=/ I feel bad for the little fur ball and when I say "little" I mean
HUGE

My cat is 20 POUNDS! That's ridic

He loves cobra starship and smelling things.

His best friends are heychrissy,jessejeanae, and jasey.
(Because Sam's cats and my cats are bfflz obviously!)

August 5th thus far

Anthony Green National Holiday OBVs

Just

My grandma

To hell with you and all your friends

I'm so glad I don't waste my time on douchebags anymore.

I'm more than worth anyone's time

and I'm glad I have someone who realizes that

I like having a boyfrend for once who isn't into drinking, because it's
alright but it's lame.

I've been listening to TBS all night and being stoked on life

:D

Comment ya jerks

ANTHONY GREEN2THE FRONT PLZ

OK! So we were getting ish for making those doll things and I was
walking and saw some dude walking with other dudes and looked, and I
stopped and was like "OMG is that anothy green?????1? And then I went
into an aisle and looked up tour dates and it could possibly work out
butprobz not
So I went up to the front desk and said "can u page Anthony Green to the
front please" so THE LADY AT WALMART SAID "ANTHONY GREEN TO THE FRONT
DESK, ANYTHONY GREEN" and yeah I almost died, no big dea it wasn't him
though, but whoever it was, I'd be happy2makeout with his face

AND PENGUIN/BEE COSTUMEZ PLZ!
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